may be..

May be you try your best to forget that someone,
but, the true and honest feelings will never ever die.

You may be a loser today,
but, she has been the reason for so many wins in the past two years.

It's not about what you want or what you get,
it's about what you give.

a thought of you passes by

A thought of you passes by
in the midst of the midnight
making me feel restless,
and, giving me sleepless nights
visualizing about us being together at different parts of the city
Sitting and chatting for hours and hours
A thought of you passes by..

No matter what..

No matter how much i try to hate you, I still cannot..
Sometimes the nothingness of the night compels me to call you, but i don't know what stops me..
probably i have lost all the possible optimism..

a good a day

Twenty two years of life taught me to be kind to people, came across so many ups and downs, good for me as an experience. Grandfather passed away when I was in 8th, just 60 years old. First time witnessed death so closely and probably it was the first time I realised what life really is.
I still remember my grandfather’s specs lying idle just after few moments of his death and then I realised how useless the things are, forget about anything else, even a specs so close to a person becomes a stranger just after few moments of the departure of our soul, what else should we expect. Its two years now when my maternal uncle passed, cancer killed him-just my father’s age, of around 45, left a widow wife and three daughters alone, the eldest then just in class 8th, youngest don’t even understood what all happened and she still believes that her father is alive. I still remember my uncle probably the smartest and most dynamic personality I have ever witnessed, when he used to go down for evening walk at jasola, females used to envy him.
Just followed by that another uncle of the same age died of brain tumour, leaving a son and the only child alone with his mother, and the very recent one, just few days back I heard another relative of mine died leaving four children alone. The eldest just about to complete his engineering, but unfortunately dropped the last paper to see his dad for the last time in life.
Everyone of us make beautiful plans every now and then, we are busy with all the planning’s we can do about all the possible things in this world - best job, best car, billionaire, send my parents on vacation around the world, to host a big fat Indian wedding for the two beautiful sisters I have got and to marry the medical girl whom I love the most knowing the fact that she takes me just as any other friend of her.
We make plans and suddenly a day comes when every plan looks obnoxious. They say the economies of the world is witnessing great depression, far more severe then that of the 1930’s, but I think everyday somewhere, someone is facing a great depression in his/her life. But still they are optimistic, recently met the great JESSE JACKSON Sr., out off all the things he said I remember only four words – ‘HOPE IS THE WEAPON’
When I look at all the uncertainties of life I think what if I am the next tomorrow, what if the so called great depression hits me tomorrow, what if am dead tomorrow leaving all the plans unfulfilled and unaccomplished, realising this, I think why not do at least one good in a day to at least one person. Since my realisation, I just search for a way through which I can contribute to someone’s life no matter how small it is. So that when I die tomorrow I don’t regret for all my unaccomplished plans. I might not fulfil my plans but I would be happy that I became a part in fulfilling someone else plans. That’s all man; this satisfies me and makes my day.
It was just the other day that I came across a beautiful article in readers digest and it emphasized upon saying hallo to at least five people everyday, it makes you feel good. I followed the wonderful advice and instead of five people I try to say hallo to all the people I come across each day.
Here at my university people come from 95 different countries, but the amazing thing is that they all think the same, they all are human like anyone of us and have the same desires and wishes, sometime I find someone tensed about something, someone missing his wife, someone missing his daughter, someone missing his mother, someone his girlfriend, someone sad about their grades, someone sad about something or the other. Of the little people I know, I go to them and I sit with them and try to be as much funny as I can, without asking them about their problem, I just start my own jokes, my own unrealistic and funny philosophies about life and I speak until I don’t get to hear a loud laughter from my fellow mate, what else I need man, a few moments of happiness in someone’s life because of my insanity- I do not mind.
People ask me what makes you so cool all the time, never sad, always smiling and kidding around. They say that zohaib’s life is perfect, he does not have anything to bother about and that’s what keeps him happy and energetic all the time. What should I reply or say to this, I think, if even bill gates who has all the beautiful things that this world can offer is really happy or not?
They ask me how do you manage to be happy all the time, I am not sure about the perfect answer but the only reply I give is that I try to lock my sadness in my room, everytime I leave it, I lock it inside. I give it a ring when am alone coz I need a companion to talk to.
You know what, enough of writing I guess, you are bored now like me, enough of zohaib’s illogical talking, so let me talk something logical and end my story in a lighter note.
You know what, now I realise that I only talk big. The real reason why I stay cool all the time is because; this attitude attracts female attention-22 years of experience people.
I think, will I be kind enough to keep implementing these nice things that I penned down just now? Let me think about it, and to do that I think I should signoff for now.

my life..

My life is not mine
My life is for my parents who are the reason for my existence
My life is for the people
It is for the humanity
For all these years I thought about my aspirations
But now I realise how materialistic I was
My aspirations are not mine
My aspirations are the people’s aspirations
The aspiration of every needy people I come across
For me Success is about to have ‘n’ number of BMW’s
But it is now that I realise that success is beyond BMW’s
For me it is a nominal success
A real success is about earning people.
It is about acting as a catalyst in every needy people’s life
It is about fulfilling the needs and aspirations of every single people I come across
My aspirations are my dreams and it gives me sleepless nights
It makes me loose my appetite
Probably because I want it very fast, I want it too soon
I lack patience
People tell me, I’m over ambitious
And I think they are right
I’m overambitious because there is too much to be done and I have such a short lifespan.
A very long way to go
I can’t see the three arms of my clock stopping ever.
How can I stop myself?
There is a lot to be done and I have so less time
Want to earn the resources and start fulfilling the aspirations of my people
The aspirations of humanity
Want to be a billionaire to fulfil billion people’s aspirations
--To remove billion people’s hunger
--To give billion people employment
My life is not mine
It is yours
I don’t want all this for the sake of recognition
For the sake of respect
And I don’t want to be a saint
Nor heaven is the reason
I want all this because I like it

friendship..

A Transformation
Then
“I hate you” (Innumerable times)
Now
“I miss you”
“I miss you so much”
Then
You used to talk about everything under the roof sometimes outside it also.
Now
You don’t talk to me about anything, you just keep on saying
“I miss you”
“Come back”
Then
“Please don’t go”
Now
“Study hard and come back soon”
“Will slap you if results are not good”

Things I don’t get to witness anymore
Don’t get to be referred as “Zo” anymore
Probably you are the only girl who calls me by that name.
Don’t get to see “Sachi calling” any more, Vodafone people lost their potential customer, isn’t it? [;)]
Used to charge my cell phone twice a day
Now I charge it once in two days
Fighting about small-small things everyday both in college and at NFC [;)]
Calling me ‘fattu’ n number of times coz of **** stuff.
Waiting together at our college car parking after the class until your stupid psycho friend comes and picks you up
I’m sorry, I didn’t wished good bye properly the last time we met.
And that surely calls for a meeting very soon, isn’t it? [;)]

Thanks to both of you for giving me so much of space in just three months of my Masters at Jamia.
It was the best days of my Life.
And it’s never gonna come back again unless both of us enrol for PhD. in Economics sometime [;)]
But unfortunately you will be married by then [;)]
Spent only three months of my life with you all, but was so comfortable from day one
Never hesitated to talk about anything.

Do remember and miss me always, I should not say this rather don’t miss me much, I will be back very soon.
But I don’t know how soon this soon will be [;)]
Wish you all the very best for everything

an advice..

Once we are in love we should never complain about anything.
Rather we should accept the fact that it was our mistake that we fell in love with someone who does not give a damn about all this.
People accept the fact that you made a mistake, she didn’t ask you to love her and it’s only you who is going to suffer for the rest of your life.
We should try to learn from this and try to overcome from all this rather then complaining..