why you

she asked me why she coz she thinks shez not even nice...
i donno why you..
but the only person whom i miss the most these days is you..donno why
though we dont know much about each other nor we have met...
i donno why out off all the people i know i miss you the most...
i donno why...
n its getting stronger each passing day...
i donno out of all the female friends i have, why i fell for you..
n fell for you so seriously that even my parents got to know about it donno how...
i donno anything yaar...
but i know that apart from you there cant be any other female who can be so special for me,whom i miss everytime...
i dont think i was ever so serious and if not you than there cant be anyone else for the rest of my life for sure...
i know you have many questions,i donno if i can answer all of them,,,but yes i would love to go through them anytime you want....

i miss you...

i miss you many times...
i miss you every time
---i get an appreciation for my work...
i miss you every time
---i see a couple in the metro talking endlessly to each other...
i miss you every time
---i wait for the bus at the bus stop
i miss you every time
---I'm alone
i miss you every time
---i get back from class to my room walking alone in the
-----night with empty streets
i miss you so much whenever
---the number "tum se hi" comes on my music player
i wish if i would have had
--- the privilege of sharing my thoughts with you...
i wish if i could
---tell you the endless story about my university...
i wish if i would have had
---the privilege of sharing all my joys with you..
i wish if you would have never mind
--- giving me your shoulder when I'm low coz I'm so far away
-----from you
i wish if you could ever love me
---with the same intensity as i do...
i wish if you would have
---also missed me the way i miss you...
i miss you so much
---knowing the fact that you are unaware of all this..
i am absolutely unaware
---about your take on all this but still i miss you...
i wish if you could ever imagine
---how much more i would miss you if you too would start
-----missing me someday..
i may not be the perfect man for you but
---even a fraction of space in your heart,
-----would be enough for me to become one some day.....

is she....

is she still unable to make out
---for whom i have written so much...
i gave you so many clues
---are you still unable to make out from them
-----or you have made out of it but you don't want to react...
hey dudette if you have made out
---then please react and tell me what you feel about it
but still if you are unable to make out
---then tell me how much more clue you need...
my dearest friend have started calling me 'fattu'
---coz i'm not able to express my feelings for you directly
hey friend i dont know if i'm a fattu or not
---but there are many reasons which stops me from telling her directly
i dont want to tell her directly coz
---i'm totally unsure of what her reaction would be
-----i'm unsure of her perception about all these stuffs
as i always say "many things are better unsaid"
---"many things are better unsaid coz of the fear of
-----something"
i have the fear...
---i have the fear of losing her
-----i have the fear of losing her even as a friend
-------and i dont want this to happen ever