why you

she asked me why she coz she thinks shez not even nice...
i donno why you..
but the only person whom i miss the most these days is you..donno why
though we dont know much about each other nor we have met...
i donno why out off all the people i know i miss you the most...
i donno why...
n its getting stronger each passing day...
i donno out of all the female friends i have, why i fell for you..
n fell for you so seriously that even my parents got to know about it donno how...
i donno anything yaar...
but i know that apart from you there cant be any other female who can be so special for me,whom i miss everytime...
i dont think i was ever so serious and if not you than there cant be anyone else for the rest of my life for sure...
i know you have many questions,i donno if i can answer all of them,,,but yes i would love to go through them anytime you want....

i miss you...

i miss you many times...
i miss you every time
---i get an appreciation for my work...
i miss you every time
---i see a couple in the metro talking endlessly to each other...
i miss you every time
---i wait for the bus at the bus stop
i miss you every time
---I'm alone
i miss you every time
---i get back from class to my room walking alone in the
-----night with empty streets
i miss you so much whenever
---the number "tum se hi" comes on my music player
i wish if i would have had
--- the privilege of sharing my thoughts with you...
i wish if i could
---tell you the endless story about my university...
i wish if i would have had
---the privilege of sharing all my joys with you..
i wish if you would have never mind
--- giving me your shoulder when I'm low coz I'm so far away
-----from you
i wish if you could ever love me
---with the same intensity as i do...
i wish if you would have
---also missed me the way i miss you...
i miss you so much
---knowing the fact that you are unaware of all this..
i am absolutely unaware
---about your take on all this but still i miss you...
i wish if you could ever imagine
---how much more i would miss you if you too would start
-----missing me someday..
i may not be the perfect man for you but
---even a fraction of space in your heart,
-----would be enough for me to become one some day.....

is she....

is she still unable to make out
---for whom i have written so much...
i gave you so many clues
---are you still unable to make out from them
-----or you have made out of it but you don't want to react...
hey dudette if you have made out
---then please react and tell me what you feel about it
but still if you are unable to make out
---then tell me how much more clue you need...
my dearest friend have started calling me 'fattu'
---coz i'm not able to express my feelings for you directly
hey friend i dont know if i'm a fattu or not
---but there are many reasons which stops me from telling her directly
i dont want to tell her directly coz
---i'm totally unsure of what her reaction would be
-----i'm unsure of her perception about all these stuffs
as i always say "many things are better unsaid"
---"many things are better unsaid coz of the fear of
-----something"
i have the fear...
---i have the fear of losing her
-----i have the fear of losing her even as a friend
-------and i dont want this to happen ever

i never knew...

i never knew i would pass my twelfth with distinction..
i never knew i would be an economist someday...
i never knew i would leave my masters in my favorite subject to join MBA
i never knew i would be out of India so soon..
i never knew i would come to Malaysia for my masters...
i never knew i would love the university so much...
i never knew i would be 22 just after eight days of my arrival at KL..
i never knew i would not get a single call on my 21st birthday...
i never knew i would find my dad so positive about the girl i like...
i never knew i would be in love again...
i never knew i would fall for someone who is unaware of all this...
i never knew i would stop flirting with other females coz of a single girl...
i never knew i would find my friends saying its a miracle that zohaib likes "a" girl...
i never knew i would be blogging so soon...
i never knew i would get few postive feedbacks for my write ups...

i never knew....(to be continued)

clueless clues

"many clues r clueless...
many things r better unsaid...
many things r better unsaid
coz of d fear of sumthing..
**** is not a monster,but still people like me are scared of her somethimes..."

but thats how life is...

"somethings in life are just unforgetable...
some people in life are impossible to forget...
though they dont care for you at all or as much as you care for her...
but thats how life is...
always goes the other way round..
the things that we wish for, barely happens...
but thats how life is...
always we have unfulfilled desires...
n knowing d fact that its never going to be fulfilled, we still wish if it could happen someday...
i don't expect anything to happen as i wish..
but i always dream if it could happen as i wish...
but still it does not happen..
thats how life is..."
----i donno in what regard i have written this but yes i know the female who came across my mind while writing this....
but this does not make any difference to her.....(thats how life is...)